My (bad) Love Story...6 Kegagalan,7 Alasan

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In my previous article,I occasionally mentioning that I suffered from many obstacles in my Loving way.Whenever I "hunt" for a girl,I always suffered from the same thing...Decline.You know what,When I say "I Love You" or "Will You be My Girlfriend" all 6 women have a same answer to me...."No" or "Sorry" either those two words,they have a same result and that is "Failure".

Okey this article is about my Unfortunate way to get my first Girlfriend....So far from 2008-today,I have been failed at least 6 times from 5 girls (one of them declined me twice) and 1 additional girl (just recently) that I failed even before I confess my feeling to her as she suddenly dating another man only few days before my supposedly planned day to confessing my feeling.Hohohoho how embarassed I am...

So tonight,from my 7 experience from those 7 women,I gonna describe you the reader,various reason why they decline us (especially me)...

1.Sorry,I Just Don`t want to

(Dia bilang aku gendut dan jelek)

The first girl that declined me said this words...I didn`t remember what she said to me that day.And I`m also didn`t understand why she said that.Just simply said "I just don`t want to be ur GF"...Few days later,My best friend told me about the reality behind her reason...she decline me because of my apperance...

I realize I`m still a fat guy at the time (believe it or not I`m really overweight in early Secondary School).Aside from that she claimed that I`m ugly compared to her close friend (who then became her Boyfriend for a while,before broke up)....As this is only the first failure,not much grieve to me yet in this time.

2.Sorry,I want to focus on my study

(Belajar dulu deh)

Alright,I`m regroup for a short period of time after my first failure...2 years after that,I`m finally get another target.A girl that a year younger than me...she`s my junior and we met in some Church Serving Commitment.I`m began attracted to her after we had many conversation together,and she occasionally asking something that she didn`t knew.I`m really excited to her (only that time)

After sometimes I begin to getting closer again and again with her....until one night,I finally gathered all of my braveness,and confessing my love to her and........."Sorry i want to focus on my study,I don`t want dating with you in fear it gonna disturb myself".....maybe Science Book and Knowledge more important to her.

Strangely enough,only few weeks later,she dating my friend.Hahh?hey does she want to focus on her study?....wow,from here I begin to vicious at myself

3.Sorry,I Just break up

(ohh baru putus toh....okelah)

A year after after my second loss,I reunite with my old friend in school reunion after only few years graduated.She`s sooo different from her old image that she once used to be.She looks feminime and so lovely with her friendly look.Just like before...She`s next!hahahahaha And you know I have a long history with this third girl for the next few years.

Also just like before,I begin to getting her attention and met her more frequently.Either at church or other places.After few months...I think I had enough.One night,after I drive her home....I finally told her about my heart for her...And she only smile.Wow...I talked inside "yes finally...this is it".

Ooopsss.....she suddenly said this "Sorry...uhm thanks for be honest.But I just broke up with my BF.So I want to rest".......#Jokerface

4.Sorry,I`m still in love with another man....your best friend

(Hooo kamu cintanya sama temen baik aku?)

Alright,I can say that the fourth is the most painful as well as the most memorable failure in my life.With 0-3 loss record,now I getting ashame to myself.I don`t know why...I begin to suspected my way to approach the girl.It` must be something wrong about it....

One day in school....I was introduced to my junior by my teacher.Hey....She`s not new for me.She is my Best friend`s former GF.Honestly,I`m attracted to her since the day she still dating my best friend.But at the time,of course I didn`t think to take her away from him...She`s yours,no way man!But it`s been a quiet sometimes after they broke up....So nothing wrong if I try to get her to be mine...for several months,I try to get closer to her.And seems things seen perfect.And i so carefully to take a step especially from my previous 3 losses.

On one school trip to someplace (I hope I never visit that place again)...I was planned to express my feeling to her.But this time,I don`t want to lose again,and swore myself that I gonna go home with holding her hand.One fateful night...In the front of my friends,Teachers,and others...I gather all of my braveness,self-belief and put everything on the line.In the middle of warm situations and hundreds of chants from my friends...I Express my feelings to her!!!!!

Just do what Jeff Hardy do....do something Extreme!Everyone screaming at us....I believe this gonna be my time!But....................0-4

She claimed that she still in love with my best friend...and can`t afford their broke up.In the end,whatever she reasoned,I`m lost (again) along with my reputation in school....

5.Sorry,Too Many Task to Do

It`s too damn hurt...0-4 record!I think...I lost everything in that incident which lead me to my fourth loss.In the time like this,the only thing that I can do is just lay on my bed,and trying to forget about what happen.

FYI,2 months after that fourth defeat,I met again with the third girl that declined me before.Ahhhh I didn`t want to talked much about it....lead me to 0-5....she declined me again.This make her as the only girl who decline me twice with now the reason is "Too busy"....But she suddenly dating another man only short time later after she rebuffed me.....#SAD

6.Sorry,There`s must be another girl who better than me

(pusing deh gw)

Just like Jeff Hardy who never won any matches at Wrestlemania....Either do I with 0-5 right now.I want to say to Hardy "Jeff now we same with 0-5"...Less than a year after the last failure,I unwilling to give up hope.There`s must be still some of them inside!

I targeted my classmate....And you know "the sixth time won`t gonna happen this time"....That`s what I hope and swore to myself when I begin my 6th try.And honestly...I`m so so sooooo stupid.She doesn`t gave me such a good response,but I still trying.From here,I understand,that do something with force,doesn`t make thing turn good....otherwise,turn bad.

In the last day as High School student,I desperately trying to expressing my heart`s feeling.But as I thought before,she rebuffed me.And reasoned that when I enter the university,I `ll find a girl that better than her....At first,I didn`t believe it.But one day,It really happen!I found someone who better (maybe 10 times) than she was.

Fortunately...I able to hold onto myself for quite sometimes.After my sixth failure,I grew tired of myself.Maybe it`s not a right time for me.And from here,the story shift to THIS ARTICLE:"Ketika Wanita Yang kita Cintai Diambil Orang Lain"

7.Thanks for Loving Me...But SORRY

(ne....nande?why?dosite?)

Yes....in the university,after a long time since my recent loss nearly 2 years ago,I met "someone"...OMG from all of my target previously,this woman is soooooo attractive to me.The way we get closer to her is so Challanging.But this what I like....some challange!hehhehehehee

I begin to developing my feeling for her as we also begin to meet her more frequently.I refer her as "woman" rathr than a girl.Because she`s a strong person than I am aside from the fact that from a gap,she`s older than me by one year....

Okey let skip all the way....Because of the post-trauma incident in the fourth failure,I`m still afraid to confess to her.because of this....I waited too long.This all begin to turn from bad to worse when she reportly dating another man.So that mean,I`m already fail before I express my feeling....and it also mean that my record still at 0-6 with no win.(Thanks God at least still at 6)....To lower the pain,I write a small piece of letter to her,to express my feeling.You know 6 times is enough.I really wanted to quit to be "Girl`s Hunter" if in the end,everything turn into a shit....Until today I`m still had some trauma and fears.

(Alamak...Gini terus yak?)

You know....I said it before "As a man,we must ready to lose"....and that`s what I do.But you know I`m just an ordinary human.I `m also have a limited amount patient.And if you read it carefully,there always word "Sorry".

Jeff Hardy said,that He`s tired of being sorry...and so do I,I`m tired of being sorry.

Thanks for reading,and Keep Living in the Moment with me Jeff Hardy!